I haven’t cut in over five months… but i’m beginning to be triggered. I want to so bad. If someone were to talk to me, this would be a great time. I want to so bad. 

don’t do this don’t do this don’t do this don’t do this don’t do this don’t do this don’t do 

I can’t help it. I have too, I need to. It will bring the pain back i have missed so much. What the hell’s wrong with me? I can’t contain my thoughts right now, they’re scattered abroad. What to do with myself? I want to so bad, maybe I just will then I won’t have to think about it so much.